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Being "plus size" really blows.


My Confirmation is getting closer and closer and I've started looking for The Dress. 

I get the feeling that this would be much easier if I was going through it as a 10 year old girl. My mind associates this process with white, so I really want to wear a white dress but...do you have any idea how hard it is to find a formal white dress in plus sizes that doesn't look like a wedding dress? I've spent literally *hours* combing the internet in the last couple of weeks, searching for something and haven't found anything yet. 

Today, however, I located this and really, *really* liked it, but...of course...it doesn't appear to come in white. So in a fit of desperation, I e-mailed the customer service department and asked if there was any chance they were going to be getting this dress in white, come early spring. I'm sure they're going to laugh at me and my pathetic pleading. :is depressed:

The ceremony is on March 22nd at the Easter Vigil, and I'm really quite stunned at how many friends I'm going to have there. My family is exceedingly displeased with my spiritual choices and very likely won't be there, but at last count, I'm going to have 10 friends come for me. I'm actually very honored that they're all coming, being as only two of them are Catholic, so the rest are really stepping out there for me. 

We still haven't heard anything about Richard yet and after I finished the previous journal entry, I went and researched pancreatic cancer online. 

It's really grim. Worse than I thought, even, as this is one of the more aggressive types of cancer and the patient actually doesn't become symptomatic until it's at a rather advanced stage already. Even if caught early, they only gave a 20-30% survival rate. If caught late, like Richard's was, there's only a 2% survival rate, with a life expectancy of 3 to 6 months. 

I was really rather stunned when I read that. It never crossed my mind at Christmas that Richard wouldn't be here for the one next year. 

Anyway, we're all tense but hoping and praying for the best. 




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Jan. 22nd, 2008 02:41 am (UTC)
Congratulations on your confirmation! That's wonderful.

I feel you on the dress thing. UGH. Even though I'm not in plus sizes anymore, I still don't wear dresses because they're just too hard to fit my body. Have you tried finding a white top/skirt combo or suit?

FTR, at my first communion when I was 10, I wore a white dress and wreath of baby's breath on my head. But for my confirmation when I was 16, I wore a flowered tea-lentgh dress in really pale blues and greens. Maybe you could think about going for a really pale color instead of white? Like a super-pale pink or blue, maybe? That dress you liked comes in a nice pink and a yellow that are both pretty.

Re: pancreatic cancer. I am so, so sorry to hear that's what your uncle has. It's what we lost my mom to ten years ago, and you're right - it's incredibly aggressive. I hope your family is able to spend some time with him in the coming months.
Jan. 22nd, 2008 03:51 am (UTC)
Thanks, I'm really excited about it!

I normally don't wear dresses and as I'm an apple shape, it's next to impossible to find one that looks nice on me. I considered a skirt and top but couldn't find anything there I liked either. (I'm way too picky!) I might do the pink one...I like that one a lot.

About Richard...thanks. I'm trying really hard to stay positive, because we haven't heard anything for sure yet, but everything I've seen points to the same thing.
I'm probably not going to be able to spend much time with him, as he's down in Houston and I'm on the border with Oklahoma, which is about an eight to nine hour drive. I have a vacation coming up in late March, though, so I'll probably go down then, anyway.
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